As a child I had some psychic abilities such as seeing spirits, telepathy and as I grew into my teen years, I had a few experiences with telekinesis. For many years I thought everyone sensed the same things I did. It was not until I started to notice that people were not reacting to the same things I was seeing and feeling. Then I knew I was a little different from most folks. When I shared my experiences with my family about seeing ghosts in my childhood home, they would laugh it off and say I had an over active imagination. Even though we all had experienced paranormal activity there.

In my early teens, I began seeing  what looked like a screen of faint moving dots where ever I looked. I realized if I started at it long enough, it became more detailed. So I would focus on just one area and stare for as long as I could until my eyes would begin to tear up. Through the years, I continued to do this and the fast-moving dots began transforming into what looked like a grid of sorts but the lines of it were much more curved. I would see flashes of light, moving orbs of light and dark shadows move across in front of me. Sometimes when I would go very deep, the grid would turn into very intricate geometric shapes that looked similar to a kaleidoscope. I have been doing this nightly because it helps me relax and go deeper into more traditional meditation.

Ironically, I came across an article about a form of meditation called Trāṭaka (Sanskrit n. त्राटक trāṭaka, tratak, trataka: “to look, or to gaze”) . To quote wiki, “By fixing the gaze the restless mind too comes to a halt.[2] It is said also that control of the ciliary (blink) reflex stimulates the pineal gland,[3] which some authorities identify with the third eye. Trāṭaka is said to enhance the ability to concentrate. It may increase the power of memory and bring the mind in a state of awareness, attention and focus.[4]


I have always wondered if I had been unknowingly doing something to help me have a spontaneous Kundalini awakening at age 33. I have always been a very spiritual person but I had never done any formal meditation or spiritual training beforehand. Well a new puzzle piece has just been added to my board!